I really, really, really want to be my own boss – primarily so I can spend more time with my girls.
But for whatever reason, that’s not the way things have unfolded for me.
So, instead of getting hung up on that and ruining the precious moments that I DO have with the girls, I am choosing to be grateful for “what is” right now and make the most of every second – wherever I am and whatever it is I am “supposed” to be doing at the moment.
If I am with the girls – I am focused on being with them and making sure that I am totally present in those moments. I’m not stressed but very happy and positive. Because those moments are so fleeting.
Part of what allows me to be truly present and happy in those moments is “letting go” of EVERYTHING else that is on my mind – bills that need to be paid, home projects, work stuff etc.
I just completely let go of all that fear, worry, planning etc. so I can really be fully there mentally with my girls. The fears, worries and all other thoughts of future and past “things” creep in but I try to recognize when that is happening and bring myself back to the moment.
Recently I have been looking at some older pictures of Leah. I can NOT wrap my head around how fast the time has gone.
In some ways, when I think about all that has happened, it seems like a lot.
But really, she is 6 years old. My God…6 years old! My little baby is 6!!
And before I know it, she’ll be 7 and then 11 and then 21.
So, I want to make sure that every moment I have with her, Lily and Jodie is the best that it possibly can be….no matter how mundane the moment might be – like cleaning the house or whatever.
If I’m with them, that moment is awesome and I want to make sure I’m really there to appreciate it.